Ponderings

[woodface]

I guess I should update. It's been a while. I've been distracted a lot lately, by a number of things. None of which being the thing I should be distracted by.

Still haven't gotten anywhere. I'm considering finding out when my mom is going to town tomorrow morning and going with her so I can sign up at a temp agency while she goes shopping. Now just actually gathering the courage to do it. Chances our it will still be a while before I actually get anything. I'm still on the waiting list for social security and most companies tend to only take people who already get compensation because they get compensation from the government if they do. I wish I knew what I wanted to do. When I look at stars_like_dust and see how she's really found something that she likes and is good at, I wish that I knew something I could like as much (and be good at it too).

Belgium is a mess. I'm glad at least one party didn't screw us all over and refused to sign the agreement Walloon and Flanders came to about BHV. We'd have been completely frakked if they had signed that damn thing. It doesn't seem our government will fall just yet though as they're trying to move the next elections forward so they don't have to change things just yet. Yeah, how many decades have they been postponing this now? I'm one disgruntled Fleming.

I've been a bit absent from them lately. The last fic I read was... well lyssie's last Sam/Kara fic. The reason I will still watch SG is because Sam is so frakking hot and I'm curious about Ben Browder. Besides that? Honestly? I mean you really honestly want to know where I stand with S/J? You might not like it, but I've come to the point where Jack looks too old to have that much appeal to me anymore. S8 didn't speak to me. The Sam/Jack semi resolution was fanfic. Sam/Pete was dealt with poorly. The plots made me yawn and the finale was a frakking parody and you know how much I like those. I'll go on pretending S7 was the last season.

BSG is fun, but I'm not that involved with it. Which is good as it's easier to avoid spoilers. I like thinking the plots over, I adore drooling over Kara but I'll avoid Kara/Lee. I don't really have the impulse to read fic at the same obsessive amount as I did with SG. Which is fine. I do like writing for it when I have inspiration. I love making Kara icons. I love Kara. BSG has spoken to me in the way that SG failed to in S8.

Farscape, I'm in the middle of watching the PK wars. John/Aeryn doesn't speak to me like it could have. S4 was er... a bit annoying. They frakked up Sikozu in the mini. I'll let you know more when and if I feel like it.

I'll admit the whole thing is rather amusing, but at the same time it doesn't sit well with me. (Maybe it's just because I know nothing of House fandom and so I'm not aware of this person having caused trouble before.) I get fic mock, oh boy, do I get it. There are some things that just are asking to be mocked and make me wonder if the author was fully aware of what exactly she put down. I'll happily mock some fics with a certain group of people. Is it hypocrite of me to have problems with people doing this in public? I know there are communities out there to just mock fics and while people do whatever they won't, I can't say that I like this. I just keep imagining that one day one of my fics might end up on one and I know I'd feel terrible if it did. While I truly hope my fics don't have this kind of mocking potential, I do wonder about the authors of those fics that do. So no, I can not justify it in my head because if they care as much about their writing as I do, they'd feel awful.

So yes, I do sometimes feel guilty when I mock something, even if it is very amusing and just bad. Maybe the fact that I don't do this in public where any sensibilities can be hurt makes it easier. On the other hand, maybe it's worse because the person can't stand up and defend him/herself. Then again, I don't ever imagine that I'll actually go to the fic and say "dude, this sucked". If I do feel compelled to make a comment I'll try to keep it polite and constructive. I guess the internet makes it easier to be rude about it though. It's so much easier to make fun of someone when you don't have to see their faces or consider the impact because you will not be directly aware of it in any way.

While the whole House fic incident is rather amusing, and the author and the fans' responses have been greatly wankable, I do wonder about it all.

ETA: In the meanwhile I'm keeping busy by playing Knights of the Old Republic 2. My double bladed lightsaber kicks ass, although I do think that equipment and character wise, I liked KotOR 1 better.

Comments

[splash-the-cat.livejournal.com]

*snuggles you*

[woodface]

JULIE! *pouncetacklecling*

[amykay73.livejournal.com]

BSG is fun, but I'm not that involved with it. Which is good as it's easier to avoid spoilers.

I am totally the same way. I too want to stay spoiler free. That's how I was during the whole season one, and I liked being surprised by what happened on screen. I can't get into the fics with much enthusiasm either. I have read a couple that were really good, but I don't have the desire to continue sifting through the others that were put out. I also thought I would have some plot bunnies to work on during the down time, but I got nothing. I have been rewatching the eps, and saving them to DVD's, so maybe if I sit down one day and watch a marathon of them, I'll be inspired to do something. And if not, I have Season 2 in July to hopefully get the excitement back.

For the other comments...[hugs]

[woodface]

I'm perfectly happy to let TPTB work out what comes next. I think most of my interest lies with what happened before the series.

BSG really is a show that you have to just watch without knowing what is coming. I just rewatched the entire series as I bought the DVD's, but it's just not the same when you know what will happen. But then, I always have this with all shows. I prefer not to know what will come.

*snuggles* Thanks.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

The House thing? It went beyond simple fic mockage. It was a group of people who egged each other on to do things reminiscent of elementary-school-yard bullies. And then surprise surprise, retaliation from the other side with the same level of maturity.

Frankly, it was fen mob mentality at some of its worst. I defy anyone to explain it otherwise.

[woodface]

I think I'm going to have to agree.

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

And I forgot to mention - temping sound like it'd be perfect for you. That way you can try out different things. Hope you can get a temp assignment soon! *crosses fingers*

[woodface]

*nods* It might be. I'm just a big whimpy right now and totally procrastinating having to grow up. Oooo, look. Kotor! And there, Kara and BSG prettiness. Shiny! *bounces off*

*snuggles*

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

Oh dear. I think we both got unfriended for talking about the idiocy. WOE.

(Also, mwah.)

[woodface]

We did? *blinks and snorfles* Okay, right. Excuse me while I'm rather amused.

[splash-the-cat.livejournal.com]

I leave you alone and just look what happens. ;)

[nandamai]

HAHAHAHAHAHHAA! That is what you get for calling a spade a spade, girlies!

OMG I hope I got unfriended by association. I love getting unfriended! *runs off to check*

[poohmusings.livejournal.com]

Ha! You used the word fen! *dances with triumph*

[mrv3000.livejournal.com]

I was kinda ashamed for using it though. :( Well, at least I'm still 100% w00t free!

[splash-the-cat.livejournal.com]

*sends MV a "100% W00T-free Fen" shirt*

[liminalliz.livejournal.com]

*tackleglomps you*

[woodface]

Eek! *is tackled*

*snuggles* Hey, hon.

[sjshipper.livejournal.com]

will send positive thoughts about temping your way. it's been a good experience for me...I got hired full time by the place I was temping, and it's a fun bunch of people to work with. Not exactly what I want to be doing, but better than sitting around at home waiting for companies to call back on my resume

[woodface]

Maybe I like sitting around the house? *coughs*

*smoooooooooooches* Thanks.

[lyssie.livejournal.com]

Well, as the instigator of the little wankfest, let me be the first to say that it was fun as hell. And I'd do it again.

I have absolutely no sympathy for her. If you put fic out there, and you do a bad job of it, expect it to be mocked (same goes for me). I'm still sad I didn't get to laugh in the face of the one poster who said, "none of them has the guts to put their fic out there" as I think every person arguing/mocking was, in fact, a ficcer.

And, as a member in good standing of at least two fic-mocking communities. *bows and smirks* If I can't be snide and amused, what else can I do?

[woodface]

Heh, hon, you do what you want. I'm just not sure I agree with it. *shrugs* But I love you either way so nerh. *smooches*

[lyssie.livejournal.com]

Yay! *is loved*

Also, we would have made fanom_wank. *wanted it so*

[woodface]

Ha! That was a possibility.

*frowns* Am I going to make it on fandom_wank now for the fandom of a show I haven't even seen a glimpse of?

[alliesings.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Go temping! I enjoyed temping, and if I don't get the job I'm interviewing for next week, I'll probably be temping again this summer. :)

[woodface]

At least it buys me time to keep my eyes open for something that I really want.