I will be here when you need me

[woodface]

Seeing everyone is putting up spoilers about Fall out. I'll talk about Grace.


Why am I left with a really heartwrenching feeling? Must say that my viewing of the ep wasn't optimal as Misty decided to interupt me a couple of times, once by attacking the mop.

Okay, on to the ep. It really had a Star Trek feeling to it. I liked Sam in it, seeing her emotions so clear for once. Esp the conversation with Jacob was touching.

And of course with Jack. But I don't feel good about it. I'm a bit torn at the moment. She talked about some things I'd been waiting for to hear but in a way that I have been fearing. Maybe I'm just in a negative mood but it really felt like a goodbye. She faces her feelings, full out, there's no denial about them but it's an unreachable goal. In a way though, it felt like she knew that if she wanted it, Jack would be with her. He isn't complex after all. But he would risk her career. However, I understand Chimera right now too. So Sam is gonna take the plunge and try to lose control with someone else. Knowing that whatever happens, Jack will be there. It's true to their relationship and it confirms a thought that's been with me today before watching Grace; Sam can move on. Which is good and bad all in one.

I'm just not sure how I feel about it all. I was squeeing after Evolution but I'm not squeeing now. I'm very reserved and I think I will continue to be until I see the end of Chimera. Sadly enough, I'm not being optimistic about ship right now. The ep did touch me though.

Come full circle at last, heaven, home,
I will be here when you need me
I will be here in the pouring rain
I will be here on diamond mountain

Comments

[poohmusings.livejournal.com]

Okay, I'm in a serious need for some coffee so I might not make a lot of sense here. And with that said, here I go! :)

So Sam is gonna take the plunge and try to lose control with someone else. Knowing that whatever happens, Jack will be there.

I guess my take with Sam "letting Jack go" is that it doesn't have so much to do with Jack becoming Sam's "safe guy," but rather Sam realizing that before she can really *be* with Jack -- or any man, for that matter -- then she has to be willing to open her heart to the possibility of being broken. For example, all the guys we've seen her "be with" in the series are ones who were never really a threat to her heart.

She knew to some extent that nothing would ever *really* come from her relationships with Narim and Martouf since both reside on different planets. And I think the closest we've really seen Sam heartbroken over the loss of someone was her reaction to Orlin's death, but again, she'd only known him for a couple of days, so it's not like her loss was *that* intense.

So, in a way, Sam's done a very job through the years of protecting herself from loss/heartache by "pursuing" relationships that are already doomed from the get-go, thereby making their eventual disintegration not that surprising or painful.

But I think that what Sam came to realize in "Grace" is that living life with this big ass wall between you and, well, everyone is that sure, you're protected, but you're also *separated*. So when she speaks of moving away from Jack (who has also been one of her "safe" relationships), I think she's actually speaking about moving away from being scared, insular, removed from all around her. And I think Sam realizes she has to do this because it's pretty damn hard to love someone -- this someone being anyone, but I'm thinking of Jack in particular -- when she's keeping everyone at bay so she will never be hurt.

So ... that make sense? Make you feel any better? *HUG*

[woodface]

Yeah, makes sense and I agree. I still don't know how it makes me feel though and I really think that Chimera will let us see what exactly will happen with ship. It can go positive, it can head the wrong way and I just don't know what to think. I'll probably have to assimilate the new information.

[lisayaeger.livejournal.com]

I know exactly how you feel. And while I intellectually agree with Karen, my heart is going to have a very hard time watching Sam with someone else. I haven't seen Grace, but I think it's the kick in the ass Sam needs to take a risk or two. The first one won't be with Jack, and maybe in the long run that's a good thing. She, unlike him, hasn't had an opportunity at a healthy, loving relationship. With Peter, she'll see that's possible, and at the same time realize that he's not "the one." So, we'll get the bad for sure, and the good stuff will just come later. But it will definitely be a hard ep for me to watch :-(

[woodface]

Hmmm yeah, I do see him turning out not be the one see needs. Maybe Jack is a safe bet for more reasons than she thinks.

I do disagree about the healthy relationship Jack supposedly had *g*

[seldear.livejournal.com]

Hmm... I might bookmark this, just so I have something to point people to for explanation regarding the whole 'pep talk' in 'Grace'...

Good explanation!

[woodface]

That's the key.

Perhaps so =o)

And Luka Bloom...he is on my top 10 list of music I would take if stuck out in space.

Hee! You have excellent taste ;o)

[poohmusings.livejournal.com]

Hee, thanks. Guess I actually did manage to make some sense. Go me. ;)

[woodface]

*laughs* It did make sense! =o)

[seldear.livejournal.com]

Well, it made sense to me!