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Studying isn't going well today and I really don't feel like doing anything more right now. The prof gave the questions but they're just off enough for me to start worrying if I missed some vital things in class (despite having Tim and Bart's notes too).

There is a reader of about 350 pages and I can't be bothered to try and read it all through. I just don't know if it's important or not (apparently most of what is said is exactly what was said in the classes but I don't know seeing I only read two articles from it). I have until the 23rd so that should be enough time, I'm just feeling listless right now and not up to it. I'm trying not to think about having to start on my thesis again after this but I refuse to regret it (my mom says she finds it a shame I didn't finish it but argh).

*sighs* I don't know. Maybe it's just the thought that after this it could be all over. I could get a job and venture into the real world but that sounds scary. I could continue to study for another year but I'm so sick and tired of it all.

Perhaps I'll do a vanishing trick and dissolve into thin air but forget how to restore myself again.