Black words slipping off my tongue
Nov. 17th, 2006 03:07 pmWeird mood today. Again. Feel like sneezing, only not. I think I depressed myself with everything I wrote yesterday. I'm still working on the kiss thingies, but seriously... anything coming out yesterday was depressing. I think I need some fluff. Like lots of fluff. But not a fluffer.
I'm sulky and I'm having a hard time working up the courage to do what I have to do. I want to fix things, but it's hard to change something when all the reactions you get make you fall into some sort of apathy and you wonder why you're even putting your energy into it.
I want to get a positive reply to either of the last two applications I sent off. Maybe then I won't have to care. I'm too enthusiastic about these, though. It probably means that I don't stand a chance.
I'm sulky and I'm having a hard time working up the courage to do what I have to do. I want to fix things, but it's hard to change something when all the reactions you get make you fall into some sort of apathy and you wonder why you're even putting your energy into it.
I want to get a positive reply to either of the last two applications I sent off. Maybe then I won't have to care. I'm too enthusiastic about these, though. It probably means that I don't stand a chance.
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Date: 2006-11-17 03:18 pm (UTC)I hope that's not my fault because of our convo last night. I was being unreasonably bitchy due to my PMS and illness.
*hugs a lot*
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Date: 2006-11-17 03:20 pm (UTC)*snuggles*
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Date: 2006-11-17 03:23 pm (UTC)*licks your door knob*
"MMMMMMMMM! FLUFFERNUTTER!"
*runs away*
*Would take comment but leaves it anyway*
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Date: 2006-11-17 03:24 pm (UTC)I love your insanity. Don't change.
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Date: 2006-11-17 03:34 pm (UTC)*hugs and continues to think good application thoughts*
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Date: 2006-11-17 03:35 pm (UTC)Thank you!
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Date: 2006-11-18 11:04 pm (UTC)