It's so quiet
Oct. 1st, 2004 03:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
woodfaceI should update. I'm not entirely sure if I feel like updating but I get the impression that once I start, the post will probably turn out to be way too long.
I didn't make a decision. Not really. I just came to a point of inaction, knowing that I didn't like one option and I didn't like the other either. I guess I just don't have the energy to start another year at uni in a direction that I don't feel 100% (or at least 75%) enthusiastic about. So I registered to find a job. Not that I have been looking yet. In fact, I'm procrastinating. I don't think that is such a bad thing though because I feel slightly more relaxed at the moment. I can't say that I'm regretting not picking up another year at uni, I'm worried I might regret it but I'm not actually regretting it. I feel strangely peaceful with it (as long as I don't think about getting a job, that is).
My time has been spent by watching Star Wars. Am falling in love with Han Solo and Princess Leia all over again. I badly want an icon too but my attempts earlier today failed. I've been reading fanfic and squeeing unbelievable at what probably is way too mushy. But dude! I like Han better than Jack, like his humour better. Love the fighting with Leia. I used to play Han when I was a kid and my best friend played Leia. He he. The Original OTP. Yes, it's even so bad that I got a book from the library that focusses on their relationship. The thing is annoying though as I can not imagine Han speaking Dutch so I end up translating in my head from time to time. It's kinda hard to get into the book as I don't see Leia saying "Hoi". Oy =oP
Besides that, I'm not sure if there is much to say. My mind is strangely quiet at the moment. That doesn't happen a whole lot and I should enjoy it. Just a few stray impulses resonating but nothing too much. Nothing enough to make me unhappy. Just peacefully quiet as if I'm in the eye of the storm. I probably am. Transition time. Time for change. I don't like change but right now, I don't mind. I think I'm mentally preparing myself. Or maybe it's just denial. Which isn't such a bad thing, not for a minute just to allow me to catch my breath.
I didn't make a decision. Not really. I just came to a point of inaction, knowing that I didn't like one option and I didn't like the other either. I guess I just don't have the energy to start another year at uni in a direction that I don't feel 100% (or at least 75%) enthusiastic about. So I registered to find a job. Not that I have been looking yet. In fact, I'm procrastinating. I don't think that is such a bad thing though because I feel slightly more relaxed at the moment. I can't say that I'm regretting not picking up another year at uni, I'm worried I might regret it but I'm not actually regretting it. I feel strangely peaceful with it (as long as I don't think about getting a job, that is).
My time has been spent by watching Star Wars. Am falling in love with Han Solo and Princess Leia all over again. I badly want an icon too but my attempts earlier today failed. I've been reading fanfic and squeeing unbelievable at what probably is way too mushy. But dude! I like Han better than Jack, like his humour better. Love the fighting with Leia. I used to play Han when I was a kid and my best friend played Leia. He he. The Original OTP. Yes, it's even so bad that I got a book from the library that focusses on their relationship. The thing is annoying though as I can not imagine Han speaking Dutch so I end up translating in my head from time to time. It's kinda hard to get into the book as I don't see Leia saying "Hoi". Oy =oP
Besides that, I'm not sure if there is much to say. My mind is strangely quiet at the moment. That doesn't happen a whole lot and I should enjoy it. Just a few stray impulses resonating but nothing too much. Nothing enough to make me unhappy. Just peacefully quiet as if I'm in the eye of the storm. I probably am. Transition time. Time for change. I don't like change but right now, I don't mind. I think I'm mentally preparing myself. Or maybe it's just denial. Which isn't such a bad thing, not for a minute just to allow me to catch my breath.
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Date: 2004-10-01 01:33 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-01 01:36 am (UTC)But it's just a silly book, I'll just have to suck it up.
*smooooooches*
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Date: 2004-10-01 01:50 am (UTC)Ah, Han/Leia. *sniffle* Alas, my childhood...
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Date: 2004-10-01 01:51 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-01 01:59 am (UTC)See? We were all doomed from the very beginning...
So therefore it's not our fault. It's George's!
HA!
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Date: 2004-10-01 02:00 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-01 02:02 am (UTC)*sigh*
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Date: 2004-10-01 02:15 am (UTC)She could drink Indy under the table...
Heheheheheh
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Date: 2004-10-01 02:21 am (UTC)AND run and scream and run and scream and... come to think about it, that's about all she did, poor woman.
*g*
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Date: 2004-10-01 02:29 am (UTC)*scritches*
And. Smack anyone who says otherwise.
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Date: 2004-10-01 02:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-01 03:26 am (UTC)And I <3 your icon. Can I please gack it? *loves Arnold J.*
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Date: 2004-10-01 04:03 am (UTC)and the double entendres. (sp)
*g*
ETA - when you've tried to post that comment 4-5 times, it's just not as funny any more.. ;D
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Date: 2004-10-01 04:09 am (UTC)I gacked it myself.
*g*
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Date: 2004-10-01 10:08 am (UTC)*knuffels* Thanks, hon.
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Date: 2004-10-01 11:08 am (UTC){{hugs}}
So far so good, IMHO.
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Date: 2004-10-01 11:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-04 11:10 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-10-04 11:13 pm (UTC)*prods LJ*
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Date: 2004-10-04 11:52 pm (UTC)*concentrates on Han/Leia goodness*