Triple Drabble: Convergent comfort

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Disclaimer: Not mine
Category: G
Classification: Angst, romance
Pairings: Sam/Jack, Kanan/Shalan
Spoilers: Divide and Conquer, Abyss
Summary: They’re bound now, he and Kanan.

A/N: Huge big thank you for the instant beta to splash_the_cat who by now is pulling out all her extra grey hair again. *smooches*


He wakes up every night at 1:35 now. The damp sheets fall down his body to bunch around his waist. He shivers as a breeze enters through the open window and cools the beads of sweat from his bare chest.

They’re bound now, he and Kanan. Even if Kanan’s presence and his memories were never welcome, they come to him in dreams. He hates to think that they’re alike but somewhere along the line, their lives took the same path. They both fought a war – he’s still fighting – that had become bigger than anything in their lives.

Until Shalan and Sam. They might look alike, but they’re not the same. It doesn’t change the fact that as he’s trying to catch the fleeting images of his dream, they become one. When Ba’al’s knives carve into his chest, gravity making his limps heavy and unmoveable, he opens his eyes to find her watching him.

They’re one. Kanan and him. They were both willing to sacrifice everything for her, for them. Both struggling against the greater good that divides them from Shalan and Sam. But he won’t leave either of them and Kanan agrees. He never thought he’d see the day that he’d agree with a Tok’ra. It’s hard not to when he can still hear Kanan in his head. When he can still feel the anguish of having left her behind.

They share the same burdens but different memories. They complete each other. When Kanan wakes up from dreams of leaving Shalan, Jack remembers fighting the unyielding force field. When sleep is elusive to Jack and only gives him memories of acid burning skin, Kanan reminds him who he died for over and over.

So he lies back down on the mattress and comfort comes with gentle touches and laughing eyes.

Comments

[debs7.livejournal.com]

Wow. That was heart breakingly beautiful.

[woodface]

*blush* Thank you very much. =o)

[lisayaeger.livejournal.com]

I replied to this once already, but lj is being awful today. So, a recap of what I said before:

I think this is one of your most beautiful pieces.

I've always thought that Abyss was one of the shippiest eps, and even though S/J have all of 10 seconds together at the end, it was about the implications of what he would do for her.

*sigh*

Really great writing.

*goes back to pulling out gray hairs like [Bad username or site: @ livejournal.com]*

[woodface]

Lj is being really annoying this evening. I think it's a boycot cause I'm posting a lot tonight ;o)

I think this is one of your most beautiful pieces.

Oh wow *becomes quiet at that* Thank you so much! *huge big knuffels*

I've always thought that Abyss was one of the shippiest eps, and even though S/J have all of 10 seconds together at the end, it was about the implications of what he would do for her.

It is! It's so right there *bounces around happily*

*goes back to pulling out gray hairs like splash_the_cat*

OUCH!

[besyd.livejournal.com]

Nice. Very nice. I was really drawn into this one. Made me stop and think ... and feel. Thank you.

[woodface]

Hee! *g*

Thank you for the privilege, I'm glad you liked it. ;o)

[elly427.livejournal.com]

This is, as everyone else has said, beautiful. Love the ambiguity of who's who switching around. Just beautiful.

[woodface]

*beams* Thank you very much, hon =o)

[audrich.livejournal.com]

Oh, Jara, the rhythm in this was gorgeous, like waves upon the shore, and with each wave a glimpse into Jack/Kanan's POV.
When Ba’al’s knives carve into his chest, gravity making his limp(b)s heavy and unmoveable, he opens his eyes to find her watching him.
Okay, I am really dense. OF COURSE it was Sam he was thinking of when being tortured by Ba'al! What a revelation for me.

They complete each other.
*raises eyebrow* True symbiosis?
And Jack seemed to hate the experience.
Maybe he didn't tell all to Jacob in Allegience... now there's a thought...ooooh.

Thank you, THANK YOU.

[woodface]

OF COURSE it was Sam he was thinking of when being tortured by Ba'al! What a revelation for me.

*g* Who else would he think of? ;o)

*raises eyebrow* True symbiosis? And Jack seemed to hate the experience. Maybe he didn't tell all to Jacob in Allegience... now there's a thought...ooooh.

I don't think he'll ever feel happy about it and that if he feels Kanan and him have something in common that he will only admit it grudgingly to himself. But there were things they have in common. I'm actually not quite sure where this fic came from *g*

*smoooooooches* Thank you for the lovely feedback.

[deltachild.livejournal.com]

*is speechless*

The most beautiful and moving and flowing SG Fic I have read in a loooong time. So powerful in an almost understated way (if that makes sense). It reads like a very oddly structured poem, a compliment I assure you.

Brilliant!

[woodface]

*blushes and scuffs toe*

Thank you so much *knuffels*

[jemster.livejournal.com]

Very nice. ;-)

[woodface]

Hee, thanksie =o)

[angst-angel.livejournal.com]

They were both willing to sacrifice everything for her, for them. Both struggling against the greater good that divides them from Shalan and Sam.

Ooooh, good. :)

When sleep is elusive to Jack and only gives him memories of acid burning skin, Kanan reminds him who he died for over and over.

*smooch* I LOVE that line. Very powerful.

So he lies back down on the mattress and comfort comes with gentle touches and laughing eyes.

Angst. Gotta love it. ;) Lovely, bunny! :)

[woodface]

Yaaaaaaay! *beams* Glad you liked it =o)